Alive in this Moment

Gotta love Starfield =)
I'm feeeeeling the Holy Spirit BURNING in me =)
ahhh!!
I really can't wait til YC 2009.
I missed YC 2007 too much.
I'm really looking forward to YC next month,
it's going to get me so pumped for Jesus.
I remember just entering that building for the first time
and coming across... many many Christians.
You can feel the love.
I gotta recharge my batteries, i feel so worn out.

God is so amazing.
How can something so wonderful... love me?
I'm so happy to know this.
Everything about this belief, this knowing brings me to to my feet
in joy and excitement.
The only thing in the world that can bring a real smile on my face
has only got to be Jesus Christ and everything that comes with it.
Hallelujah <3

Peace of Mind

You are, You are,
The light of all the heaven
...
I want to hold the hand that holds the world

I find comfort in the Lord.
I pray to find guidance and to find peace in my heart.
This week has been hectic and I'm starting to find myself
to become more and more annoyed at everything.
I need to calm down and take it easy
but then I can't take anything easy or too lightly.
I'm responsible for everything I do.
GAH.
I just want this month to be over.

Quote of the day:
"There is no art to find the mind's construction in the face."

Zhao is in the hooouse

Hmm.. that rhymes..
...
no it doesn't but hey!!
it kind of does....

What a pleasent surprise today =D
Got a wonderful mark in my math ... but jeremy shot me down by saying
it wasn't good enough T_T
ANYWAYS, that's fine, i worked for my mark and i'm happy =D
However.. there is always the downfall.
English oh english.
I always thought i was good enough for you, i guess not.
Why must you not reciprocate my feelings?
I'm left heartbroken now that you have shattered my love i gave you.
-cough- that just means i need to work harder!!!
!!!!!!

What a Wonderful... God

My heart's on fire.
This feeling is so amazing.
Brings me back to 2006-2007.
Praise the Lord.
Live it Loud 2009...
.... here I come wahahaha

If we are the Body - Casting Crowns

It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better out on the road

But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ

If we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way

It's rather hard
to say the things that you want to say
using your mouth.
I mean i could have soo many things that i want to say
to make the person stop worrying..
but it's so hard.
All i can muster up is a: oh...
ya...
sorry...
Honestly. i could do so much better than that.
But
i can't.
ahhh this fustrates me

ah, yes.. ib

IB... what to say...
i'm already stressed...
i don't have that much hw...
actually.. it's quite a lot... compared to junior high
i just want to finish it early and not have to do it...
i have horrible time management.
I'm getting through.
I don't even know where this stress is coming from...
It's crazy.
Crazy IB.

French..
I do not like french.
Everyone in class looks like they understand everything
that the teacher says...
I'm sitting there not understanding anything..
Ahhh.. the people around me are probably thinking i am realllly stupid.
That's okay.. i'm probably just language retarded or something haha.
Anywho...
i really hope school gets better...

First day...

Dang.. good thing no other grades were there today
it would have been intimidating.
Yes.. it was a very long day... for a short day....
I thought that it would be very hard to start school
without a lot of my close friends there...
but it wasn't like that.
It was just like any other day at school except with new people.
I had friends there.. maybe that's why.
In grade 9 at the beginning of the year, i had this flame that wanted
me to do really really well in school.
That worked out... til after half the year had past. And then i just
procrastinated... and depended on more and more people to help me
study for tests and do homework.
Now grade 10.. i have this flaming fire of... i dunno hahaha
i really want to do well in ib now that i'm in it....
i've decided that if i'm really going to drop ib.. it should be at the end of the year.
Ya....
I want to work hard... yet i have a fear of working hard... i don't have any idea why... but i do..
Yes..... the people at Diefenbaker seem nice...
and they all.. have confidence in making friends and such so easily
and.. i don't hahaha...
i've never had confidence in that area...
oh well...
it'll all be good..

ahhh

i'm so not ready for high school

It's great...

To have such forgiving friends!

Breathe

I loved that message today.
Mmhmm
i love it.
And i love the LORD.
Yod, Heh, Vav, Heh.
haha, i enjoyed playing the piano very much today.
Hm.. as i was playing the piano
i don't know
it was so moving...
the atmosphere was so.. moving.
Good day today.

Mmmm...

So...
I watched Evan Almighty with
Ada, Jack, Jeff, Karen today.
The movie gave me a lot to think about.
Ya, it was really funny
but there was a message that i really got from it.
As much as what God tells us to do may seem
rather insane, and out of place, and random
it's really because he loves us.
He has a plan for us, not a plan we give ourselves.
In the movie, he tells Evan, a new politician
that wants to "change the world". He just got a new house
a new car, a new life, and then God suddenly tells him to
build an Ark.
Now adays, building an ark just is.. very out of place.
but there is a reason behind it all.
I really liked the quotes in the movie.
"Ask and you will recieve"
"How do you change the world?
You start with an Act of Random Kindness, ARK"
=)

haha, it really was an amazing movie

Grade 9 Grad 2007

yay!!!
pictures on facebook >.<

anyways
for the beginning ceremony
we all had to line up and stuff to go on stage
one by one...
ya...
i was freaking out because my friends
were telling me how i'd trip
and i hadn't walked in heels before
so...
lol yes
over all the ceremony went really well
we got to see our grade 7 pictures in a slideshow
and i was really amazed at how young we were
i never really thought we really changed
but... man... we were so very small!!
umm... the dinner we had was okay-lah haha
well mostly because i could barely eat it
since my gums were really sore just after i got my braces tightened
=(
we had this amazing punch fountain
AND CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN
we had like fruit and stuff and so u would just stick the fruit in the fountain
and volia a wonderful... chocolate coated friut lol
the dance was craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy
my friend and i just went ... nuts
haha our feet really hurt near the end of the dance
but we kept dancing anyways cuz..
well, we were having so much fun
i screamed so much at the dance... i was so scared i would lose my voice the next day lol
we only had 3 slow danced in 3 hours
so... we didn't really have much time to rest lol
by the time i got home from school
my feet were aching sooo much haha
it was one of the funniest nights of my life!!!!
=)

YC King 2007

I'm so glad i decided to go.
This trip...
i don't know...
it really made me think a lot about
how much i really believed in God
and how my walk with God is going.
When i was there i could totally feel him
I knew he was there.
Just right before i went on the trip
a lot of things had been bothering me.
A lot to do with school, friends and piano.
When i started listening to the tesitmonies,
the music, the sermons, all that, i really felt
touched, and all that was bothering really lifted.
I learned that... my life.... is something i need to place
in God's hands.
I learned... a lot.

United... WAS AMAZING.
AMAZINGGGGGG.
I loved them so very much.
The speakers were AMAZING as well.
Everything that happened was pretty much amazing.
Staying up with friends watching Employee of the Month
and Meet the Fockers was.... awesome, i miss that so much
Although... i have no idea what happened in Meet the Fockers
except that... the dog got flushed down the toilet by the cat lol.
And then hanging around the YC place talking about absolutely nothing.
Hanging around West Ed, and then skating was amazing.
The attempts to take a picture while skating was pretty rad lol.
The ride home was awesome... although i was still paranoid about falling
asleep. Haha, texting and not talking was actually really fun haha.
yay
I loved this trip. I can't think of a thing i regret.

God is good, all the time.
All the time, God is good.
=)

=)

Wow...
i haven't blogged in awhile...
long time...
Well, today is my birthday!!!
It was one of the best days of my life.
I mean, i didn't have a celebration or party.
But.. i spent it with the people i wanted to
and... that was enough to make this day special.
I started my day really really really great.
My friend put balloons and happy birthday stuff all over
my locker.
And it was really really awesome.
But then, i also had a friend who had the same birthday as me
and they didn't do anything special like that for her..
so i felt really bad.
i got a lot of happy birthdays and it was just so special!!!!
Well, i also went to her party for about an hour after school
and then went to church.
church was amazing.
I really do love playing the piano without having to look at sheet music
and following all the rules.
I love playing the piano just... freely...
haha, it's great.
When the people at church started singing happy birthday to me
I was... like extreme to the max happy.
I've never felt so happy lol.
It was ... such an amazing feeling.
Van ride home was also awesome.

Today was amazing...
And i want to thank... EVERYONE
for making it that amazing.

Okay!

I finally made the decision
I am going to go to Diefenbaker
FULL IB!
I was asking myself yesterday
why did i even apply to go to Diefenbaker in the first place?
I mean i kind of knew that if i ever dropped all of ib
i'd have to go to QE
but then... it was like
if God gave me the confidence to apply to something
like this
then he would give me the confidence to take it on.
heh heh...
make sense?
I prayed a lot about this
I tried not to think about it but i kept popping back into my head.
Oh man... i went through a month of deciding and...
it was only about which high school i want to go to.....
>.<

Chinaaaa

Wow
China is so different from what I know from Canada
First of all
it was nastily polluted, nasty
People smoke like every few minutes
and it's disgusting.
I was so sick of it.
And i wanted to go home after a week lol
What i mainly did was go with my mom to visit her friends
that she haven't seen in 8 years
It was very boring
My brother and I just sat there at the tea place
with her friends
doing nothing.
We just sat there.
blehhh....
But it was an amazing experience.
I went to Shanghai, Hangzhou, Suzhou, Guangzhou and Hong Kong.
When i was there in Shanghai for dinner or something
the waiter went up to me and started pouring wine into my glass
so my mom's like, she can't have any because she's not 18
and then the waiter looked at her funny
it was really weird....
haha, i'm not really use to people smoking inside so when i was at like
shops and stuff, it was really disturbing
The hardest thing to do in China, was to ignore the homeless people that want money
and they're like cripple or really old, or something, and it was really very sad
I probably like Hangzhou the most
because there weren't as many people there
and the air was less polluted
and it was really nice and fresh there
When i was in Hong Kong,
I went to that ocean park place
and it was very.... i dunno, it was less fun then i imagined
all that was really entertaining were the dolphins performing haha
I GOT A FOBBY HAIRCUT IN CHINA
AND I LOOK SO FOBBY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i did get a cell phone there
lol
that made it all better
haha
and ya, overall it was an awesome trip
and i love calgary more haha
there's a lot of interesting things that happened in china
i shall blog that... another day lol

yay

china tomorrow!!
=D

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Haha, my craze with Trigun is still not over