It really doesn't feel like I have enough time to do everything, and I can't seem to understand the homework that I have to do. This is all becoming very overwhelming. I want an outlet where I can just let out all this stress so I can continue with all of this. Argh...
I'm not looking forward to my finals, I'm no where near prepared, and the more I think about it the more I want to shrink away. A friend of mine has pretty much given up on school, and his giving up attitude is quite infectious.... but I can't give up. I don't think I could let that happen. However... i'm very very close to slipping. I don't know what to do, it's so frustrating.
God, give me the strength to work at this. It's not the most important thing in my life... but I really want to get through this. I feel so unmotivated, so lacking in everything I'm doing. I need Your strength. I want You. I need You.
'Cause we can't fool ourselves,
into someone else's heart
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
N'Sync
The memories I remember the most vividly are the ones from my childhood. I miss so much of the things that I use to do, I use to have. Oh man... to relive those days for just a while... it would be so awesome. Running around in the snow with my snowsuit, actually enjoying the winter, enjoying the outdoors... how different it was back then. I sometimes wish I never came to know electronics. Flying down the big hill by my house on my bike with my arms high up in the air without a care in the world. Running on the field til I got too tired. Playing soccer and getting winded leading me to vow to never touch a soccer ball ever again (I actually really like soccer). Man, what happened to me?
I miss talking on the phone, flashing each other so we could all have a conversation together... and later getting in trouble for spending too much money on it. It was worth it. Going over to my friend's house to just hang out, bike and get slurpees. I miss sitting around talking about boys and how stupid they were, playing pranks on our friends, causing a ruckus in out neighborhood. I miss the innocence, the moments where it really didn't matter where we were as long as we had fun and no matter what, we were busy doing something. I miss having so many friends that I could do anything with. We never judged each other for acting too immature or too crazy. I miss that the most. Over time it's like a line was drawn for the certain ways I can act, restrictions.
Time passed by too quickly.
I miss talking on the phone, flashing each other so we could all have a conversation together... and later getting in trouble for spending too much money on it. It was worth it. Going over to my friend's house to just hang out, bike and get slurpees. I miss sitting around talking about boys and how stupid they were, playing pranks on our friends, causing a ruckus in out neighborhood. I miss the innocence, the moments where it really didn't matter where we were as long as we had fun and no matter what, we were busy doing something. I miss having so many friends that I could do anything with. We never judged each other for acting too immature or too crazy. I miss that the most. Over time it's like a line was drawn for the certain ways I can act, restrictions.
Time passed by too quickly.
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
Green, Pink, Orange, Magenta, Yellow
But Your love
Your love
The only the thing that matters is Your love
Your love is all I have to give
Your love is enough to light up the darkness
It’s Your love
Your love
all I ever needed is Your love
You know the effort I have given
And you know exactly what it cost
And though my innocence was taken
Not everything is lost
School is killing me!!!!!
I'M SO TIRED T_T
When will you stop? =(
I really need to pick it up a notch.
I never really had to study to do okay and pass
BUT NOW IT'S SO DIFFERENT, WHY UNI... WHY???
But on the plus side i finally quit kumon =)
FINALLY.
Last day is next week, it shall be an exciting last day there.
It's been..... a long time since i started complaining about it, and now it is over and done with.
Wow, it sure takes me a ridiculously long time to do things =P
I really want to fix up my schedule and take some other options.. but it doesn't seem like the way i put my schedule earlier allows me to change it.
Well...
This was an extremely pointless blog lol.
BYE!
Your love
The only the thing that matters is Your love
Your love is all I have to give
Your love is enough to light up the darkness
It’s Your love
Your love
all I ever needed is Your love
You know the effort I have given
And you know exactly what it cost
And though my innocence was taken
Not everything is lost
School is killing me!!!!!
I'M SO TIRED T_T
When will you stop? =(
I really need to pick it up a notch.
I never really had to study to do okay and pass
BUT NOW IT'S SO DIFFERENT, WHY UNI... WHY???
But on the plus side i finally quit kumon =)
FINALLY.
Last day is next week, it shall be an exciting last day there.
It's been..... a long time since i started complaining about it, and now it is over and done with.
Wow, it sure takes me a ridiculously long time to do things =P
I really want to fix up my schedule and take some other options.. but it doesn't seem like the way i put my schedule earlier allows me to change it.
Well...
This was an extremely pointless blog lol.
BYE!
Monday, October 04, 2010
Webwork... you suck
WAH!!!
So Uni is finally showing it's true colours... or I'm just starting to feel really overwhelmed because I feel like I want to do well. That hasn't happened for a very long time. This motivation to do well in school, and to actually DO my homework that no one is checking. It's a strange thing.
And who else can I thank other than God! I've been praying to feel motivated to not leave things to the last minute, study hard in order to do well. I have no idea how well i will do on my quizzes but whatever it is I feel like I'm doing something right by just doing work and such.
I really hope that I can make it back in time from Hawaii to write my quiz. I don't want to take a 0%... it'll crush me and make me feel really bad. JIM STALLARD!!! PLEASE BE UNDERSTANDING!!!!!!! I'll talk to you again on weds T_T
I think that it's time I quit my job at Kumon. I've been meaning to do that... for oh.. I don't know... 2 years now? haha... The things I get done in life >_> When you go to work with as if it was the biggest burden in your life... I think it's time to move on and leave it behind. So... For those reading, please don't let me change my mind on this subject.
OKAY
BACK TO MATH I GO
So Uni is finally showing it's true colours... or I'm just starting to feel really overwhelmed because I feel like I want to do well. That hasn't happened for a very long time. This motivation to do well in school, and to actually DO my homework that no one is checking. It's a strange thing.
And who else can I thank other than God! I've been praying to feel motivated to not leave things to the last minute, study hard in order to do well. I have no idea how well i will do on my quizzes but whatever it is I feel like I'm doing something right by just doing work and such.
I really hope that I can make it back in time from Hawaii to write my quiz. I don't want to take a 0%... it'll crush me and make me feel really bad. JIM STALLARD!!! PLEASE BE UNDERSTANDING!!!!!!! I'll talk to you again on weds T_T
I think that it's time I quit my job at Kumon. I've been meaning to do that... for oh.. I don't know... 2 years now? haha... The things I get done in life >_> When you go to work with as if it was the biggest burden in your life... I think it's time to move on and leave it behind. So... For those reading, please don't let me change my mind on this subject.
OKAY
BACK TO MATH I GO
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Distractions
So camp was SUPER DUBER AMAZINGLY AWESOME. No. Those words can't even describe my time there. It's fascinating the way God works through people's lives. God is just so so so good. I was writing about my trip in my journal and just recalling the things that God did in my life, the changes He made, they all got me excited inside and it was awesome. After coming home from something like that, I didn't think that coming back to Calgary would be the biggest distraction EVER. I honestly didn't think that in just a few days, I was back to where I was before I went to camp. But it really does help, writing about my events at camp and just things like that. It brings me back and it helped renew my spirit.
Man the flesh is so weak sauce! Mine is at least. And lemme tell you that it really sucks. So more bible reading and praying for me.
School is starting and I'm freaking out. AH SCREW YOU SCHOOL. I DON'T WANT TO GO JUST YET. -sigh-
Man the flesh is so weak sauce! Mine is at least. And lemme tell you that it really sucks. So more bible reading and praying for me.
School is starting and I'm freaking out. AH SCREW YOU SCHOOL. I DON'T WANT TO GO JUST YET. -sigh-
Monday, August 09, 2010
Long time no blog!!!
I am super excited for camp!
I haven't been to a camp since grade 8 for band camp.... I did not personally enjoy it all that much. The most enjoyable camp that I have ever had was in grade 6 for outdoor school. That... was a good time =)
Wow.. isn't is sad how this is my first one? You'd think that after... many many years of attending the church i would have gone to at least one.. but nope... this is my first one. I'm really looking forward to what God has in store for me. I didn't think too much about it until the time to go to camp creeped up on me.
Yay! I'm really pumped for this!!!
I haven't been to a camp since grade 8 for band camp.... I did not personally enjoy it all that much. The most enjoyable camp that I have ever had was in grade 6 for outdoor school. That... was a good time =)
Wow.. isn't is sad how this is my first one? You'd think that after... many many years of attending the church i would have gone to at least one.. but nope... this is my first one. I'm really looking forward to what God has in store for me. I didn't think too much about it until the time to go to camp creeped up on me.
Yay! I'm really pumped for this!!!
Friday, June 25, 2010
And the sun went down
My backyard is actually very pretty. Huh... I just noticed =)
SO I'M FINALLY DONE... DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE T_T
and... yet... i don't feel the least bit free. I feel as though i'm still bound to high school because i still don't know how i did on my tests. SOOOOOOO i'll try not to think about that.
But ya, I really can't think of anything else... so NIGHTS!
SO I'M FINALLY DONE... DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE T_T
and... yet... i don't feel the least bit free. I feel as though i'm still bound to high school because i still don't know how i did on my tests. SOOOOOOO i'll try not to think about that.
But ya, I really can't think of anything else... so NIGHTS!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
AH!!!
GRAD ON SAAAATTTURDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!
OH MY GOODNESSSSS!!!!!!
ALREADY?!?!?!???!?!?!?
and it's going to rain and possibly snow.
SO HOPEFULLYYYY WE CAN ALL PRAY IT DOESN'T AND GOD'S GOING TO GIVE ME A SUNNY GRAD DAY =)that would be great =)
Even if it doesn't... I'LL HAVE SNOW AT MY GRAD. Way betta than psh... the sun right????
Yes... yes.. i should calm down.
Anyways.....
OMGOSH GRAD IN 2 DAYS
OH MY GOODNESSSSS!!!!!!
ALREADY?!?!?!???!?!?!?
and it's going to rain and possibly snow.
SO HOPEFULLYYYY WE CAN ALL PRAY IT DOESN'T AND GOD'S GOING TO GIVE ME A SUNNY GRAD DAY =)that would be great =)
Even if it doesn't... I'LL HAVE SNOW AT MY GRAD. Way betta than psh... the sun right????
Yes... yes.. i should calm down.
Anyways.....
OMGOSH GRAD IN 2 DAYS
Monday, May 24, 2010
AHHHHHHH
Now.. i understand why it takes forever for us to get our timetables. I UNDERSTAND THE PAIN NOW. I UNDERSTAND.
=(
but i'm finally done!
..................
now to wait for May25th, 2:00 (MT)!!!!!!!
=(
but i'm finally done!
..................
now to wait for May25th, 2:00 (MT)!!!!!!!
Friday, May 21, 2010
Long Weekend
It's long weekend and I'm suppose to be feeling happy... BUT I'm not. I have too much to do and too much to think about even though I'm not suppose to. Scholarship essays =( Study for calculus and physics =( Building schedule for Uni (I know it's suppose to be exciting and all but I'm really not in the mood to feel it so...) =(
Things to look forward to this weekend?
IB PICNIC PARTY =D
That deserves a smile.
Kinda.
Anywhooooooo...
Nights!
Things to look forward to this weekend?
IB PICNIC PARTY =D
That deserves a smile.
Kinda.
Anywhooooooo...
Nights!
Monday, May 10, 2010
Saturday, May 08, 2010
White Walls
More like falling in love
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Listening to this song makes me so happy. From the inside out, I feel joy just spewing out of my guts. IT'S LIKE OOZING OUT OF MY SKIN. Sounds prreeeee gross but i have to admit, i have not been this hyped up for a long time. Who knew that replaying this song over and over again would do this. Religion. My faith is not tied down by that word. It's not something like that... nope. It's definitely more like falling in love. Diving deeper into the the meaning of my walk with God, it never started with something like religion, I don't think I've ever seen it like that. More like the way He loved me, helped me up, and saved me WITH His love.
I honestly cannot calm down right now. I don't know why, it was very sudden. ANYWAYS!!!
Good night all =)
I hope hope hope hope you all have a wonderful night filled with sweet sweet dreams!!!
It was love that made
Me a believer
In more than a name, a faith, a creed
Falling in love with Jesus brought the change in me
P.S. I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet
I really really liked this line from the song =D
Than something to believe in
More like losing my heart
Than giving my allegiance
Caught up, called out
Come take a look at me now
Listening to this song makes me so happy. From the inside out, I feel joy just spewing out of my guts. IT'S LIKE OOZING OUT OF MY SKIN. Sounds prreeeee gross but i have to admit, i have not been this hyped up for a long time. Who knew that replaying this song over and over again would do this. Religion. My faith is not tied down by that word. It's not something like that... nope. It's definitely more like falling in love. Diving deeper into the the meaning of my walk with God, it never started with something like religion, I don't think I've ever seen it like that. More like the way He loved me, helped me up, and saved me WITH His love.
I honestly cannot calm down right now. I don't know why, it was very sudden. ANYWAYS!!!
Good night all =)
I hope hope hope hope you all have a wonderful night filled with sweet sweet dreams!!!
It was love that made
Me a believer
In more than a name, a faith, a creed
Falling in love with Jesus brought the change in me
P.S. I need more than a truth to believe
I need a truth that lives, moves, and breathes
To sweep me off my feet
I really really liked this line from the song =D
Thursday, May 06, 2010
=)
"She tells me she wants to be a raindrop, she doesn't mind falling... as long as she's not alone... and raindrops... are never alone."
-When Five Fell
That has got to be the best that WongFu has come out with so far. I loved At Musing's End, BUT WHEN FIVE FELL IS JUST MIND BLASTING. I don't even know how many times i've rewatched this and not doing homework. AMAZING!!!!!!
It gives me such a .... captivated feeling, and i'm not sure how i can describe it. Every shot, every word, had so much depth and meaning to it. To be honest, i didn't really get it at first. But after rewatching it and realizing that there was more than meets the eye in the video, it got better. Everytime i watched it, it got even better. YOU MUST ALL WATCH!!!!!
-When Five Fell
That has got to be the best that WongFu has come out with so far. I loved At Musing's End, BUT WHEN FIVE FELL IS JUST MIND BLASTING. I don't even know how many times i've rewatched this and not doing homework. AMAZING!!!!!!
It gives me such a .... captivated feeling, and i'm not sure how i can describe it. Every shot, every word, had so much depth and meaning to it. To be honest, i didn't really get it at first. But after rewatching it and realizing that there was more than meets the eye in the video, it got better. Everytime i watched it, it got even better. YOU MUST ALL WATCH!!!!!
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Check It
Lyrics:
Verse 1
Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is. But I'm a tell you what true love is. Love is not what you see in the movies. Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene, you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself, love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love. Love is when you lay down your life for another, whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister, its even laying down your life for your enemies, that's unthinkable, but think about that. Love is true. Think.
Chorus:
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
Verse 2
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres.
Love never fails. Love is everlasting, its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time, love is the only thing that will last when you die, but ask the question why? Do you have love?
Chorus
Verse 3
There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends. Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends? You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother, your father, or your best friends, but are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you? I'm going to tell you who did that, the definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love. The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow, hanging on a cross for your sin my sins, that is LOVE he died for you and me while we still hated him, that is love. God is true love, and if you don't know this love, now is the time to know, perfect love.
Chorus
Verse 1
Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is. But I'm a tell you what true love is. Love is not what you see in the movies. Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene, you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice. Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself, love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love. Love is when you lay down your life for another, whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister, its even laying down your life for your enemies, that's unthinkable, but think about that. Love is true. Think.
Chorus:
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
Verse 2
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres.
Love never fails. Love is everlasting, its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time, love is the only thing that will last when you die, but ask the question why? Do you have love?
Chorus
Verse 3
There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends. Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends? You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother, your father, or your best friends, but are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you? I'm going to tell you who did that, the definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love. The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow, hanging on a cross for your sin my sins, that is LOVE he died for you and me while we still hated him, that is love. God is true love, and if you don't know this love, now is the time to know, perfect love.
Chorus
Monday, April 26, 2010
You'll Come
As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears
=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D
Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened
Christ is revealed
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears
=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D
Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened
Christ is revealed
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
When We Say
"Love and relationships are never like the movies no matter how much we want them to be. But when something beautiful ends, for whatever reason, it's most important not to be disappointed that it's over, but glad that it happened at all."
I have been waiting for AJ Rafael's When We Say music video since... since.. well since Wong Fu showed the trailer. Freaken cute. The song is so amazing, but I really liked the original version where he sings it live. Man, that guy has a voice that could blow you away.
Well, that's all I really wanted to put up haha.
this is the part when we say were in love
and the part where we have our first kiss
but this ain't a movie
i know you cant come with me
you got your life
I have been waiting for AJ Rafael's When We Say music video since... since.. well since Wong Fu showed the trailer. Freaken cute. The song is so amazing, but I really liked the original version where he sings it live. Man, that guy has a voice that could blow you away.
Well, that's all I really wanted to put up haha.
this is the part when we say were in love
and the part where we have our first kiss
but this ain't a movie
i know you cant come with me
you got your life
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Never Let Me Go
Love who you love
With all that you have
And don't waste the time
That flies so fast
Currently, I feel as though someone has rudely stepped on my stomach a few hundred times but has not been satisfied enough to stop. Unfortunately, this is not because of the 30 hour famine but from very unpleasant things that has made it's way into my life. It's making me feel like my heart is going to burst and my insides feel as though it's sunk so far down that it cannot possibly make it's way back into it's original positions.
I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.
HOWEVER, at least I still have a to do list with someone very special!!! And I shall now list them as follows:
1. Live close/next door
2. Fly a kite
3. MOVIES!!!!!!
4. S.N.O.W.
5. SUMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(with more to come =D )
Hold on as tight as they'll let you
With all that you have
And don't waste the time
That flies so fast
Currently, I feel as though someone has rudely stepped on my stomach a few hundred times but has not been satisfied enough to stop. Unfortunately, this is not because of the 30 hour famine but from very unpleasant things that has made it's way into my life. It's making me feel like my heart is going to burst and my insides feel as though it's sunk so far down that it cannot possibly make it's way back into it's original positions.
I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.
HOWEVER, at least I still have a to do list with someone very special!!! And I shall now list them as follows:
1. Live close/next door
2. Fly a kite
3. MOVIES!!!!!!
4. S.N.O.W.
5. SUMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(with more to come =D )
Hold on as tight as they'll let you
Saturday, April 03, 2010
It's Your Love
Beyond the tomb to holy skies
He rose in victory
And bridged for us the great divide
His life is our liberty
And all the praise and glory to God
We sing Hallelujah sing Hallelujah
For the King has carried the cross
He is risen from the grave
Do you ever have those moments where a person can say all the words that you never knew you needed to hear more than ever? All the feelings that were trapped inside, and all the words that I kept locked away... I had no idea the damage it was doing to me. Lately I've been putting myself down with some pretty harsh words. And who knew that the words that I say to myself would hurt so much, and up 'til now, I believed every single one of those words. From all the things that have been happening I kept thinking that I deserved all the bad things that were happening to me, and that there was no way out of it. I didn't think that being happy was a choice anymore and I blamed myself for all the things that went wrong. I knew it was wrong to think that, but I couldn't bring myself to wipe away all the negativity.
It's not like God didn't try to show me that things aren't meant to be like that but today, words were spoken that touched my heart and with this realization it really hit home. It was everything that was bringing me down, and I can finally feel like breathing again. And... that feels really good.
It's Your Love
That has saved me.
THE DATE IS SO WRONG lol, it's April 9th!!!
He rose in victory
And bridged for us the great divide
His life is our liberty
And all the praise and glory to God
We sing Hallelujah sing Hallelujah
For the King has carried the cross
He is risen from the grave
Do you ever have those moments where a person can say all the words that you never knew you needed to hear more than ever? All the feelings that were trapped inside, and all the words that I kept locked away... I had no idea the damage it was doing to me. Lately I've been putting myself down with some pretty harsh words. And who knew that the words that I say to myself would hurt so much, and up 'til now, I believed every single one of those words. From all the things that have been happening I kept thinking that I deserved all the bad things that were happening to me, and that there was no way out of it. I didn't think that being happy was a choice anymore and I blamed myself for all the things that went wrong. I knew it was wrong to think that, but I couldn't bring myself to wipe away all the negativity.
It's not like God didn't try to show me that things aren't meant to be like that but today, words were spoken that touched my heart and with this realization it really hit home. It was everything that was bringing me down, and I can finally feel like breathing again. And... that feels really good.
It's Your Love
That has saved me.
THE DATE IS SO WRONG lol, it's April 9th!!!
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