Wednesday, March 05, 2014

Embrace

"This is the sound of heaven invading earth"

What a powerful way to worship.
Can you hear it too?


Saturday, March 01, 2014

Wake Up Child, It's Your Time to Shine

I had a really good talk with a friend the other day. It was a different kind of conversation that I don't think I've come across thus far in my life haha. BUT REALLY. It was... really good.

We talked about the struggles in our lives as individuals, the struggles that we both share, the things we are tempted with, the different ways that we deal with our situations, and how as we are talking... the conversation we were holding... was not a topic that we could talk about with other people. And honestly, I've never had a chance to talk to someone like this before. It makes me wonder how I utilize the time that I have with my friends. With the conversation I shared with this friend, I was also really thankful to have her in my life. I was glad to be able to share my life in this way with her, an honest kind of relationship where we can be real with each other. So God, thank you for Erica, she's amazing.

I've recently been feeling very distant from God. Not distant in the way that I've lost faith in Him, but just that I haven't been trying hard enough. I guess I thought that while being in ministry it was enough, but it was only until recently that I realized that I wasn't feeling fed. I've been feeling a little empty but I also know that I need to seek out these things for myself and not be spoon fed (although I really hate it when people feed me - literally I mean). This also carries forward into the ministries that I'm involved with. I know I should be praying and trying harder to seek for success in them, but seriously, my laziness is so bad. I believe this is my biggest flaw, which means I really need to push myself harder to reach for better goals.
Recently, I've learned that there really is a skill in creating and meeting goals. This was actually an assignment that I had in my management studies class (which was surprisingly applicable to my current situation). Creating specific and detailed goals, with a person who is pushing you forward for them is very crucial. For example, using my goal from class, I could write out my goal to have myself exercise, but a better way to write it out would be to exercise twice a week by the end of 2 weeks. My partner would then proceed to text me every 2 days to see how my progress was, and well, this really just depends on how committed both ends were. Long story short, I did meet my goal! In this way, I am more motivated to become more active in my goal meeting for YAC and worship.

I'm just so glad that even though I am struggling in finding a job and not too sure where everything is headed, regardless of that, I have a God that I want to please as my goal and this pushes me forward.
So... THANK GOD!