Saturday, August 01, 2009

每分每秒每一個聲音

Ever have your mind mess with what you want? It's either my heart or my mind that's just playing with me. It likes to turn a 180 on me and leave me exactly where I started. I can't think things through nor can I feel my way out. I'm confused as to where I truly want to be. It feels like something is clawing at my heart, aching to get my attention but I just can't seem to tune in. I can't seem to put myself into a state of serenity and calm every inch of me just to think. I feel so agitated and irritated that I just want to punch a wall!!! I'm sure I could make a hole in it, but it would be more harm than good. After all, I'd have to tell my parents about a hole in the wall, and I know they would not be happy with me. And just for that reason, I will resist all temptations of punching a wall. Maybe if I a nice big punching bag that I could whack, oh so nice. I should take up kick boxing O_O (laughs) However, a facebook quiz told me that as a pokemon I would be Machamp, wahaha, I'm so macho, that makes me feel great =)

Hopefully sooner or later... hopefully sooner...... I'll eventually dig my way out of this one. There's always light at the end of a tunnel, and I guess until I've come to a full out conclusion of my feelings and where I want to be, I'll be stuck, in a hole, perhaps in a tunnel with no idea where this is leading me.