Day 23

Describe what you spend most of your time on.

Internet. That's about it =(

Manstration

I seriously think that it is a real thing.
There is no doubt in my mind.

Turtleee

Wish that was what happened to mahh turtle!!!!
Hmm... I want to watch Ponyo! I thinks I will do that now.

Day 22

What made you smile the most today?

Teehee, Courtney said H-null in the same way Xuey would. Made me laugh and smile =)

Day 21

How has your life changed over the past year?

Hmmm...
I'd say it has changed quite a bit. Not really in terms of how I look, more like the way I think. It was quite the challenge to go to church regularly due to some... issues I had with myself, and so that is a drastic change for me. It may not seem that way to yooooou... but for me it's a big step. These reasons remain confidential... lol.
Let's see, I can say that I like myself better. That's another step in life that is quite the change. It's not like I didn't like the way I looked or whatever, it was more of a... I wasn't quite comfortable in my own skin. I felt very awkward (not that I don't now, just less) around people, I didn't know quite what to say... ya.
Coming to know Jesus more, to know God more were steps in my life that made me happier, and stronger. So ya!

I know I missed a day..... but whatever, BITE ME!

Guarded

Above all else, guard your heart,
for everything you do flows from it.

Proverbs 4:23

I've Got You

When I know I'm not alone,
and I have You by my side to walk with me....
It's not so bad when I close my eyes
and really think about it.
I can't be alone if You're there.

It was You, it is You, and will always be You.

5... 4... 3... 2...

Oh.
Here we go again.

Day 20

What did you eat today?

I aaaaaaaateee... some french toast, peanut butter samich, scrambled eggs, and that's all so far for today. The french toast and scrambled eggs were made by brother-mom, fanks duuude.

Day 19

Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.

My birthday was pretty cool. I don't recall actually doing something on my birthday aside from turning 18. Mmm... The birthday party I had was a whole different story though. It was not a very good day, it started out great... but ya.... it didn't go so well near the end. Not at all.. >_>

My upcoming birthday... To be honest... after last year's lesson, I don't really want to do anything. I might just do something with F4, MK, JF, JD, and TF and maybe a couple others too since people from out of town are coming back.. and most of all my favorite Ailin is back!! I miss them peoples <3
I'm not exactly excited to turn 19 so... we'll keep things on the dl.

Among the Thirsty

Blue skies above
Oceans below
Nobody else in between
Catching my breath
Seeing Your face
No longer just in my dreams

I wanna stay here
Lost in Your shadow
Safe from the battle
Oh, I want to stay here
With You forever
This is where I want to be

Holding my hand
Finally free
I see forever from here
Where I'm alive
Where I belong
Where everything else disappears

...

Inside your arms
I am safe and I'm secure
With all that You've done
How could I ever ask for more?

Dear little 15 year olds....

We live in Calgary.
Yes.
I just had to point that out in case you all forgot.
Calgary has weather PMS, you should know that by now!
THAT MEAAAAANSS....
Just cause it's been kinda nice out for a few days, it does NOT, I repeat... NOT, mean that it will stay that way for the next few days.
SO PUT SOME CLOTHES ON.
It's still snowing outside, and your bare legs will not like you for what you put them through...
That also means.... WEAR A JACKET, a hoodie will simply not do.
That is all.
Kkthnxbai.

Day 18

Post one confession/secret.

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Day 17

Bullet your day.

- Woke up
- Did my normal bathroom routine
- Ate yogurt
- Faye picked me up
- Went to Sociology
- Went to Religion
- Microwaved my food
- Hung out at TFD Library with Tammy
- Hung out with Kitty, Courtney, Jeff til class started
- Went to CompSci
- Kitty's mom drove me home
- Sitting here blogging

THAT'S ALL

MULAAAAN

Aweee

What Are Words..

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then it's on
When it's love
Yeah, you see them as lover's words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel would say
Just from me and now know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then it's off
When it's love
Yeah, you see them as lover's words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Day 16

Upload a picture of your room and talk about your room.



This is a picture of my old room. It actually looks almost like my new room without all the posters. I don't feel comfortable posting pictures of my new room lol. Anyways. I loved this room. Actually, we'll call it MY ROOM because it was... the one place I always felt the safest. My room... was the place to be... for me =)
I prayed there, I cried there, I called my crush there, I acted like a fool there, I expressed my anger there, I let everything out in my room. It was the one place I never had to hide who I was. It was the one place I could just... be me, have some me time... and feel safe. Safe as in, it was the place I knew no one could judge me for being me, it gave me time to think about things and yaaa... I spent maybe 13 years of my life in that room. It was a good room, my favorite place to be at the end of the day.. The place where I could shut myself from the world and create my very own world to hide. The place where I could lie in bed, look up at the ceiling and create pictures from the little dots there and let loose my imaginative canons hahaha.
I miss that room a lot actually. I never wanted to move away from my old house. I didn't want to leave that room and move into a new foreign room. I didn't want to leave the only place I thought I could call home.

Day 15

Write about something you worry about a lot.

I worry a lot about what I'm going to do as a career.. or rather, what I want to do with my life.
It's a never ending cycle with that topic =(

Day 14

Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.

Favorite book: I don't really have a favorite book... I do have a favorite series though. I haven't been reading for a very long time, sooo it's still the Pendragon series. I love those kinds of books that take me on an adventure, and allows me to use my imagination to explore.

Favorite movie: Again, I don't have a favorite movie. I think... a movie I would watch again because I like it so much is A Millionaire's First Love. It's a sad movie that I just really really enjoy. Hmm... Or Spirited Away. Or the Inuyasha movie Affections Touching Across Time hehe

Favorite Band: Again, again, I don't have a favorite band. BUT, I've been listening to a lot of Starfield lately

Favorite Food: I love them potatoes =)

Arms of Love

My heart is glad that You've called me Your own.
There's no place I'd rather be than
In Your arms of love,
In Your arms of love.
Holding me still, holding me near,
In Your arms of love.

Cause You're the only one who would never hurt me.

Day 13

What are your plans for the future? Far and near.

I really just want to find something I could enjoy doing as a job and work towards something... since motivation and goals are something that don't seem to be of existence as of now.
Other things.... just the typical, get married, have kids, travel a bit here and there. Get a house and car.
I dunno, just the regular stuff.

Day 12

Write about the worst day of your life.

May 31, 2010, that's all


For he has not despised or disdained the suffering of the afflicted one;
he has not hidden his face from him but has listened to his cry for help
Psalm 22:24

Day 11

Write about the best day of your life.

Best day of my life? Finding Jesus. BEST DAY EVAR =D
Praise the Lord!!!


But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,
and all these things will be given to you as well.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:33-34

Day 10

What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?

This actually happened yesterday.
My student called me a witch =(
I felt very sad.
Little children are so mean.
Why can't we all just love each other?


I really like Dr. Seuss stuff =)

Day 9

What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?

You suck.




I'm kidding.
I can't think of just one really nice thing someone said to me... But I think one of the things that I thought were very nice for people to say to me, was to just to let me know if I ever needed anything, they would be there for me =)


Mmmmhmmm =)

Day 8

How do you feel today?

I feel pretty darn happy =) Kinda tired, but overall, it was a good day.


Daawwwwww

Day 7

Upload a recent picture of you.


=)
I didn't want to be in the picture alone =P

Day 6

When was the last time you cried?

It was pretty recent. I think... a couple days ago over a movie... i think...
hahaha I don't actually remember.

Day 5

Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.

Well, going back to yesterday's mention of not-so-good stuff.. it was a time last year starting around march, maybe even earlier actually. Things seemed to keep spiraling downwards and just when I thought things couldn't get any worse.. it did.
I think it was a time where it really hit me... it hit me hard that you have appreciate the people around you. Really really appreciate them. Every time I think about it... my heart breaks, the effects of those months were tremendously painful.
It went from family issues to loosing someone that I never knew was so close to my heart and it hurts me every single time knowing that I didn't realize how much I was missing until the day I lost that someone.
It was also a time God opened my eyes, broadened my horizon. Looking back now, before any of those things happened I don't think I would have been able to comprehend or even have tried to understand it. It's not that I understand them fully now, but I feel like if certain events didn't happen in that last year I would have missed an important stage in my life and moments with God like I have never known, or thought I would have cared about.
Those not-so-good periods of my life always seemed to have an outcome where I can grow stronger as a person, stronger as a believer, always, always, when I leaned on God and just yearned for it.
God is so good. Even in the times where I felt I couldn't move on from... He'll always find a way to help, heck I think He'd just create His own way out for you.
=)

Day 4

Before I start some day 4 stuff, I just found some more blogs to follow =)
haha, I wonder I should tell them my blog just to be courteous..

Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.

Hm. So I think this would be last year during the summer. Starting around June and the constantly going good thing ended around.... i'm not sure haha. I thought that after some depressing stuff with family and such I really didn't think I would find myself in such a good place... I really didn't. The events that happened for a good solid few months of not-so-good things felt never ending.
Fortunately... God is good. He really is. I don't think I could have escaped that cycle if it weren't for the grace of God. I really felt like losing it. I really felt like I just couldn't take it anymore. And... God really doesn't give you things that are more then you can handle.
So back to constantly good stuff. I was in a good place with God, a place where seeking became everything I wanted and everything I needed to make me better, and God doesn't fail you when you try to find Him. I was in a good place with my relationships. A fantastic man found me and everything was going so well. My friends were all here, we hung out and had a good time.
It was a blissful few months.


What a cutie pie ♥

Day 3

If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?

Hmm... I would want to do a lot of things. Come to think of it... many people would have a lot of things they would want to do. What a stupid answer lol
Anyways.
In 24 hours, if accomplishable, I would like to tell all my loved ones how much they mean to me, tell all my non-believer loved ones about God, pray for a miracle that I won't have to die in 24 hours lol, eat my favorite foods, go bungee jumping, ride a motorcycle....
This is actually really hard to think of. Soooo ya... That's all I can come up with for now

Day 2

Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.

Hmm...
Grade 2-6: 3 wonderful ladies(A,T,M), made my elementary years fantastic, memorable and just plain awesome. I think that this relationship was one of the first strongest attachments I have ever had. I missed them a lot, and was quite sad when the friendship was no longer able to sustain any longer. I'm still glad they were a part of my life in such a way that made those years ones of the best memories I have.

Grade 9-forever: F4
I love you ladies. Honestly, you guys complete my embarrassing self.... well, you just make it less... I have to say, A, C, K, are the funniest people, and overall exciting people to be around. I can say that there is never a dull moment. I want to say that I was a good friend to them, but from time to time I really doubt myself. Man, I don't know where I'd be without those 3. From the time where I was socially awkward, they still accepted me with open arms. I love them so much. I'm so blessed to have such people in life, who will always be there for me, listen to me, care about me. I have to thank God for such wonderful people.

T: You are great. We've had our moments and you really are something else. Something awesome. For me being so quiet from time to time, you make up the empty space. I'm glad I gots you in my life. You are definitely one of the best people, one of my best friends as much as it is hard for me to say.

F: We're cousins, but you are a undeniably one of my best friends. You were always there for me, thin and thick and I'm glad we have that family tie. Blood is thicker than water baby =)

D: You've come to be my best friend, the one I lean on and from time to time throw my burdens at. I can't think of anyone out there that's better for me, and there really isn't. God has blessed me with you, a best friend who I can share my thoughts, feelings... and almost everything with.

The Big J: NO, it is not that guy from some of my classes. It's obviously Jesus =)
What can I say? Best friend til the end and even after that. There's no explanation needed as to why He's my best friend.

Wow, I just love you all <3

Day 1

Post 15 facts about yourself.
1. I love hoodies
2. I really like buying sneakers. It makes me happy
3. I loooove potatoes.. usually
4. Currently, Big Bang Theory is very addictive
5. I love Kingdom Hearts
6. I love sappy love movies
7. I would very much like to hang out with my family more
8. I just freakishly love God
9. Despite being in University... I don't know what I'm doing with my life
10. I dislike mushrooms, they are ew
11. When I get a dog... the name will be Mr. Hoon if it's a boy... I have yet to think of one for a girl puppsy
12. Driving and me... we have our days where we love each other one moment and..... not so much the next
13. I have a terrible sense of direction... and I'm terrible at describing things
14. I really want to learn to cook
15. I'm a sucker for these stupid 30 day things, and answering questionnaires that take forever

Look Up

I don't know what the future holds,
but I know who holds the future

Everything

When every moment is more than I can take
And all of my strength is slipping away
When every breath gets harder to breathe
You carry me, Jesus carry me

You Are strength in my weakness
You are the refuge I seek
You are everything in my time of need
You are everything, You are everything I need

I need You
You are everything I need
I love everything about You