Three Hundred Sixty Five

I'M SO HAPPY IT'S OVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRR
I wish I could say that I'm confident I passed....
but for most of the time when I do feel like I did well... I tend not to do well.
SOOOOO... I'm just going to guess that I passed and leave it at that.
I feel so free now. I can focus on VBS, and just be happy

The day after the exam was pretty darn good I gotta say =)
Shopping at Superstore, lots and lots of snacks, picnic in the car on Nosehill, ice cream in Cochrane, movie at the theatres, and dinner at the KEG.
Thanks DY for a great day <3
It's such a great way to end the day with a final in the morning.

All in all.
...
I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
IT'S SUCH A HAPPY THING.

In the mean time...

Tomorrow is it.
I'm actually really scared right now.
I don't feel very prepared. I never feel prepared, but this is the last chance I have to stay in my faculty. This whole thing makes me really nervous.
I've studied... even though I can't say it was the best way to study...
I've tried to do questions...
soo...
All that's left is to just trust the rest with You.
To be honest, that makes me feel a lot better, You've never failed me, and I know You won't fail me now no matter what the outcome is.

Now that I've got that off my chest, back to some more cramming.

Cause You're here with me for life...

I love you Hillsong

That is all.

Just You and me, nothing in between

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

X-Men

Hm.... X-Men has been on my mind all day. To be honest, I wasn't excited to see it or anything, but as of right now.... I can't stop thinking about it.
I wouldn't normally insist on watching an action movie, but I can't seem to get this one out of my head. I REALLY want to watch it again. This movie... WAS SO GOOOOODDD EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!!
Super powers get me excited. Maybe it's because I kinda wish I had super powers that makes me special and I can use it to my advantage and potentially take over the world thus turning it into a society where everyone is entitled to their own real live pokemon (of course that would require some sort of lab experiment with different animals..... okay, nevermind, if we start questioning how pokemons come to be this just all falls apart), and yu-gi-oh cards would actually have monsters come out of them using disk-like machinery, HOWEVER, I think I would ban the use of the technology to trap people's souls into cards, I didn't really like that episode................... not that I watched it...... WOW, that was completely random. I don't even think this made much sense.
Bottom line: I like super powers.
I actually want to read the comic books of X-Men, it really intrigues me. Anyways!
This was my lame excuse to not do my homework. Good night!

Fam Jam

Serrrrrrrriously
I love my cousins. I love them soooooo much.
They are the few people I just love spending time with, and I love getting to know them.
VK, MK(not the not a tree), I love you two <3

From just sitting on a bed looking at yearbooks to playing poker all in one night, it's more than just a fun time. It's a nice time to just relax, forget about everything. 

As much as we fight and ignore each other, I'm still glad you're around. Every time things get bad, or I need to vent, I'm just really happy you hear me out. When no one else seems to care, sometimes it's like you're the only one who gets it. Thanks brother man. You are quite the awesome.

Although I wish I had gone to C&C. I'm glad I spent the night at my cousin's house. It was just really nice to get my mind off of everything. 

It makes it easier to keep going.

Forget you

Dear BSEN, it's your turn.
I dislike you.
You make me feel very not good.
(TERRIBLE GRAMMER haha)

It's a funny thing with prayer. You never know how strong prayer is until you see the results. I've been doing more praying than usual, it's something I would very much like to keep up. It's become so important in my life, something I turn to when things get stressful and there's no one there at the time. God is limitless. There aren't any boundaries, no time limits to God.
These days, it just reminds me of how God became my everything.
There was a time when I thought to myself that there's no one else that I could trust other than myself. To be honest, it still happens once in a while, but with a little tweak. I know I can rely on God. When the rest of the world feels far away, even though it's right there, God is closer.
There's been a lot of prayer for my family. Especially for my family. The ones I come home to everyday. There's been a lot of prayer for my friends, for DVBS, for Summer camp. There's also been endless hours of prayer for myself, for direction. I really want it to show up soon. It's starting to eat me away inside a little. And... I've really been praying for that extra bit of strength... to just keep going.

So... even though it's super cheesy... Victory really does start with prayer... It's been doing a lot for me.

Anyways.
BSEN. I just want to pass you. So I'll study. Just for you. Feel special lah!
Alright, textbook, back to you I go.

It's Out of my Hands

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New love

That was some hot yoga session!
I feel awesome.
Thanks for a great time TH, DY, JC, DH!

=)

WHY

I asked the same question around this time last year.
It was the most painful thing I have ever gone through, and the pain remains. Just thinking about it... even now... breaks my heart.
The question WHY. It's a natural response, it's the one question we all end up turning to and depending on how we decide to answer that question... breaks us, or makes us stronger.
That one three-lettered word is enough to tear us apart and pull us away from God.
I know what it's like to hurt, to regret, to throw yourself into turmoil over that one word. I know what it's like to lose yourself, and question the authority of God over it. I know it won't make sense as to why it happened 'til much later in life when we least expect it.
To be very honest. I still don't know why. What God does, I could never understand. But to trust God, even in a situation so... devastating... it'll only lead to a promise that everything WILL be okay.
And it has been.
As much as I wanted you there for my high school graduation, as much as I wanted you to be there when I got married, as much as I wanted you to be a great-grandmother so I could see you smile around your great-grand child.... as much as I wanted these things, I know, without a shadow of a doubt, you were there, and you will be there, and you are happier than you ever were, here.
Of course I miss you. But we'll see each other again. That's just another promise.

Anyways. I'll be praying for you and your family. I pray this incident could only draw you closer to God. I really do.