Hear the Sound

You called, and You shouted
Broke through my deafness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again

You shattered my darkness
Washed away my blindness
Now I'm breathing in and breathing out
I'm alive again

Another year of YC!
Every time I go to YC, it's a different experience, each time I get something different.
This time around, I was just sooooo tired. It's strange how tired I got.
I really liked the bands that played.
Some of the more memorable bands/people were: Lincoln Brewster, Matt Maher (Dude has an amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing voice ESPECIALLY live), and of course Starfield.
Despite wanting to fall asleep lots, I still got bits and pieces from the services, and workshops. However, getting from all of them isn't the most important thing for me... It's living it.
I frequently forget these things, but this time, I really want to start living it.

Anyways. It was nice to go up to YC again, but I really don't know if I'll go again. But we'll see!
sooo ya!

IHM

Sooo... it appears I have hit a roadblock in my Bible reading once again.
-Sigh-
The moment I tell myself that, oh I'll read it tomorrow, I never seem to get back to it.
IT'S SO BAD.
Well, I shouldn't make any excuses, but I'm trying really hard to get past the part with the lamps, and the table... and stuff in the old testament. Anyways.
This reminds me... I still want to go to Blessings. I've been wanting to go... for a while now, I just never got around to it.

Soo.. I have to go back to school soon.... I'm not going to know anyone. My cousin bailed on me and JMF couldn't get into it. -sigh-
Maybe I'll make a friend, and maybe I won't be confined to only my asian friends... Mayhaps my circle of friends will grow.

I still need to work on lesson planning for DVBS, eventually start to study some theory and get my grade 10 piano cert, and.... some other things.
But on the bright side.
YC is this weekend, hurray!
I look forward to Starfield, I've been slightly obsessed with their music this past year.
And...
That's all!

We all bleed red...

I love them country music sometimes =)
It's such a big full moon out tonight!!! Skies are so clear.
Makes me want to drive forever, but I'm such a hazard today T_T
So many close calls =(
Oh driving... why do we have such a love/hate relationship?

I really don't think I can do another day of first aid training
it makes me want to throw a pebble at a small animal.....
?


Oh......... the truth in this.

Dear Room

YOU'RE SO HARD TO CLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.
Somebody wanna help me organize my stuff?
T_T

I need something to hold all my stuffed animals so I can sleep at night without having a million different things suffocate me in my sleep, along with other things falling on my head.
THERE HAS TO BE SOMETHING THAT CAN HOLD THEM ALL WHILE STILL ALLOWING ME TO SEE THEM...
or maybe.. it's time to donate some..............................
No.
That's not happening.

Oh hot daay-um...

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

^ Now that's what I'm talking about =D


By now, i'm going crazy. Looking at the university student center makes me really sad. When will I know what I want to do as a career goal? I mean, having just one thing to aim for is better than nothing but why is it so hard to do even that?
Ugghhhhhhh....!!!!
I need to make up mind...
Which leads me to a lot of other things.
For the things that I'd actually like to do. Do I really need to fill some sort of a role? What if I can never be like that? What if I don't have that faith in myself to do something like that? What if... all I need is support instead of people just telling me things I already know about myself, and what I need to change.
It just feels like God is telling me something different. I don't know if it's God or not to be honest. I never do. It's really hard to listen for God's voice because I never know if it's Him, or if He's ever even said anything to me. People come and say, oh ya, that was God for sure. Well... why am I the only one still left in the dark not really know if that's true or not?
I have such a hard time making a decision... for anything. I'm very capable of getting things done on my own. Unfortunately, I just prefer not doing them on my own. And that's when people should not help me. EVER.
What I'd like... I think is for people to just support me in the decisions I make. Even when I make the wrong ones, especially when I actually step up to do something.
I have this fear of being critiqued for everything that I do. I hate being judged... it's literally like a fear. Just a little something about myself.
I get really really anxious and things just go downhill after that stage.
But ya. Hopefully things change. I've really been working hard to change those aspects about me. It's just that fears are fears, to overcome them is hard, and thankfully, God has given me time and opportunities to face them.

Things are getting really stressful. It makes me more prone to becoming irritated. So hopefully these issues will be resolved.
All I know for now.. is that God will come through... even though things really aren't looking up for me right now.

Any ways. I'm feeling very hungry.
Happy birthday Pops. Brazilian buffet here we come =D

So many people in this world...
but I hear you calling out my name
=)

Time for Tako

I am feeling sooooooo tired right now.
Lots of mall walking, and more walking later in the day.
Wow... Walking makes me tired... how sad.

I really don't want my spring course to start. Like really really don't want it to start. That means I have to go through it again. I think I should start reading, and study up on it.
It's really funny because I noticed how much I don't go on the internet when I don't have school. I don't go on facebook much, I don't do anything much on the interweb. However, during school, it was like a consistent usage of my laptop, going on it every chance I get.....
What's wrong with me?? lol
I'm really enjoying the weather these days. It's nice not seeing just white and brown everywhere. Green makes the world seem so much nicer. It's nice to see blue skies and oh right, the sun.
I'm really really feeling like doing hot yoga, or just yoga. Should be fun!

UGHHHH

I FEEL SO OLDDDDDDDDDD >_>

You

Your light will lead me home...
Because You are home to me.

I'll sleep well at tonight
knowing He who never sleeps is by my side
cause You're here with me for life.