Oh hot daay-um...

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

^ Now that's what I'm talking about =D


By now, i'm going crazy. Looking at the university student center makes me really sad. When will I know what I want to do as a career goal? I mean, having just one thing to aim for is better than nothing but why is it so hard to do even that?
Ugghhhhhhh....!!!!
I need to make up mind...
Which leads me to a lot of other things.
For the things that I'd actually like to do. Do I really need to fill some sort of a role? What if I can never be like that? What if I don't have that faith in myself to do something like that? What if... all I need is support instead of people just telling me things I already know about myself, and what I need to change.
It just feels like God is telling me something different. I don't know if it's God or not to be honest. I never do. It's really hard to listen for God's voice because I never know if it's Him, or if He's ever even said anything to me. People come and say, oh ya, that was God for sure. Well... why am I the only one still left in the dark not really know if that's true or not?
I have such a hard time making a decision... for anything. I'm very capable of getting things done on my own. Unfortunately, I just prefer not doing them on my own. And that's when people should not help me. EVER.
What I'd like... I think is for people to just support me in the decisions I make. Even when I make the wrong ones, especially when I actually step up to do something.
I have this fear of being critiqued for everything that I do. I hate being judged... it's literally like a fear. Just a little something about myself.
I get really really anxious and things just go downhill after that stage.
But ya. Hopefully things change. I've really been working hard to change those aspects about me. It's just that fears are fears, to overcome them is hard, and thankfully, God has given me time and opportunities to face them.

Things are getting really stressful. It makes me more prone to becoming irritated. So hopefully these issues will be resolved.
All I know for now.. is that God will come through... even though things really aren't looking up for me right now.

Any ways. I'm feeling very hungry.
Happy birthday Pops. Brazilian buffet here we come =D

So many people in this world...
but I hear you calling out my name
=)